looks familiar , but is not !!!

Is a very special and particular feeling , i like to call it ," a growing experience" , a chance to start all over again ....

And for some reason , i get scare by this feeling , and i dont know why ,cuz,  i have felt this thing , many many times , but for me ,  it seems impossible to handle . ... I hate new  beginnings  , maybe because is not my comfort zone , and is not , at all , but i guess is "ok" .... I try so hard to keep my mind out of this , but i know that nothing is going to be the same ............I feel this hole in the stomach , that reminds me , constantly ,nothing is the same . 

Success...is there , at the tip of my fingers , but i will be able to reach it !!! !! i will be able ??????